the end of an era

change. it has become the cliche word of the year. 2009 is all about change. We all look back at the past year, "learn" from our mistakes, and decide what we are going to do for this upcoming year. we want to change, modify, and one word some of us hmcc-ers know to all to well, transform. We want to become a better person with each year of life we live. We do so by setting up goals or resolutions and in hopes seeing them through. As words just seem meaningless right now, our actions are suppose to speak louder. However, our actions turn from roars into whispers and another year passes leaving us to think and hope for a better new year. Why is it that we run into this cycle over and over again?

For most of us, we have the common sense to recognize what needs to be change. For some of us, even having the desire and passion to change. But only a few of us, have the know-how to maintain that spirit, being consistent. There might be times where a trip up happens, but the determination lives on as their actions do not cease. I can come up with a whole list of excuses: it's my pride, i'm cynical, i've been hurt, yada yada yada. Sure all those things can play a part, but it comes after seeing that "I've failed." We live in a world where successes are highlighted and made a hoopla about, but it's the failures that give us a backbone and shape who we are.

I can tell you, that I've failed. I've failed in being a son, an older brother, a friend, a Christian, a worker, and the list can go on. But i'm not here dwelling on my failures, I see them for what they are, and act accordingly. I'm not gonna sit around and hope change will happen. i'm gonna do ish about it and take back what i've lost. 2009: what doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger. That's what I'm living by.