the demon inside demands to be unleashed

have you ever felt the feeling of settling for good, when deep down inside you know best can be achieved? it's like the feeling of going into an exam, knowing that you can get an A, but being content with a B. insecurities, deceit, and doubt serve as catalysts making your decision to settle an obvious choice. little to no avail can the human heart find its way through the thick mist. we become blind, trying to logically lead ourselves, but by doing so we trick ourselves in thinking good is the best: that what we have now is better than anything out there. many times we don't act upon this feeling because of it being comfortable or we are just too lazy to counter it. i am guilty of both in my life. sometimes i just want to pour out and expell what i am feeling inside, but every time i do, i just seal it away from the world. i've kept so much in that the pain is starting to bleed through my skin, lurking after prey to feed on. i have realized that the motif of darkness is prevalent in my own life. it it now time to take a step back, take a deep breath, and fall backwards, hoping someone will be there to catch me. i have gone back into the hunt, may the strong and willing survive.